school writing vs. my own

I have noticed, that when I write in school, vs. out of school, I do write a little bit differently. I guess, because all throughout my school years I was taught to write a certain way, I continue to write that way in school even to this day. School, especially when we are little, is edited when it comes to teaching information. School normally only wants the students to write about good experiences and things that other students will be able to relate to. When I write on my own, I don’t care if anyone else can relate to me, because I don’t plan on showing my writing to anyone else. Not that I want to write about bad things, but I just think that I hold myself in too much when I write for school. I’m not daring and out there because I’m afraid of what my teachers or other students will think. If I’m writing in my journal I pour every ounce of what I am thinking onto the paper. When I’m writing in school, I hold things in and just write what I think would be best for the paper. Another difference that I have noticed between my school writing and my writing that I do for myself, is the fact that I can completely pick what I want to write about when I’m writing on my own. All throughout high school, I was mainly told what to write about and never got to choose for myself. Although college, is better about letting the students write what they want, I still sometimes feel like what I’m writing is not completely me. When I am writing in my journal, I do not hold back. I write whatever is on my mind at any interval during my writing. Also, in school I have to keep my thoughts organized. In my head, my thoughts are swirling through my head uncontrollably and it is sometimes hard for me to organize them all. In my papers for school, I have to think more about how I want to word things. In my own writings, I can put things wherever I please.